As she gets ready to become a mom, Claire Holt has opened up about her miscarriage last year. The 30-year-old actress, appearing Thursday on Dr. Berlin's Informed Pregnancy Podcast, opened up in detail about the series of events that led to the discovery she described as 'devastating.' The Brisbane, Australia native chat with the podcast as she's currently expecting a boy with real estate mogul Andrew Joblon, 35, who she wed in California last August. Looking back and forward: Claire Holt, 30, told Dr. Berlin's Informed Pregnancy Podcast about her miscarriage last year, which she described as 'devastating.' The star was posed with husband Andrew Joblon, 35, in October when they announced their current pregnancy Holt, who plays Rebekah Mikaelson on The Vampire Diaries and The Originals, said of the miscarriage, 'I think it was the hardest thing I've ever dealt with in my life. The Pretty Little Liars star said the feeling was comparable to tenfold the death of loved ones, 'with the guilt of, "I couldn't do this."' Holt said that during her first pregnancy, she and Joblon conceived relatively quickly when her period had returned six months after she ceased using birth control. Six weeks into the pregnancy, she saw a heartbeat flicker, but two weeks later, doctors warned her not to publicly announce the pregnancy via Facebook, as 'the baby’s measuring small.' Out and about: Holt was snapped at the UNICEF Masquerade Ball in LA in October Luxe life: The couple, who wed last August, posed together on a yacht The Aquarius actress said the news 'was so shocking to' her and Joblon as she asked doctors a series of questions to ascertain how serious the situation was. 'I had no idea what that meant - "Is that okay? Do some babies measure small? What do you mean, 'Don't put it on Facebook?' Do you mean wait because everyone should wait? Is there a problem - does this mean something? What's the heart rate?"' She said she and Joblon 'were both so shocked and confused because we had no reason to believe something was going wrong. 'I had no bleeding, I had no cramping,' said the actress, who told the podcast she began feeling like she was personally responsible for what was happening. 'I just remember feeling this sense of, "Oh my God, what have I done? Have I done something? Was this my fault? Should I not have gone running? Did I eat something bad? Was it because I wore perfume? Is it because I had a glass of wine two days before I found out I was pregnant?"' she said. 'I really had to focus on getting out of that place and trying to hope that things would be okay.' Holt said the tragic news came during the 11-week appointment, which coincided with Joblon's birthday. 'Immediately, there was no flicker, and I saw it straightaway. The first thing I said was, "Where's the flicker? Where's the heartbeat?"' Holt said, adding that it was 'devastating' when the heartbeat could not be heard. Life lessons: Holt said she's 'gotten to a place' where she believes there was a reason for the miscarriage. She was snapped in June of 2017 in LA In opening up about her current pregnancy, Holt said, 'We get the children that we're meant to have ... I feel I wouldn't have met this little guy if that pregnancy had gone ahead and there must be a reason for that.' Holt said she's 'gotten to a place' where she believes there was a reason for the miscarriage, 'as awful as it was, I wouldn't change it.' She added: 'It's really hard to say that because I don't mean in a way like, "I didn't want that baby" or "I didn't want that life" but I've learned so much and can now, hopefully, help other people through [their] journey.' In announcing her current pregnancy last October, Holt wrote, 'These past few months have been filled with excitement, anxiety, tears, joy, uncertainty but most of all gratitude.' She referenced the miscarriage in saying, 'You never forget the deep pain of loss. It dims with time but it informs many of your experiences. 'Our loss earlier this year was the darkest moment of my life. Yet, it made me infinitely more thankful for the precious baby growing inside me today.' All rights reserved for this news site dailymail and under his responsibility