Carson Daly says he was so devastated by the loss of his mother that he's now 'scared of loving my kids too much' By Dailymail.com Reporter Published: 19:44 GMT, 21 March 2019 | Updated: 19:45 GMT, 21 March 2019 Viewcomments Carson Daly has revealed he is 'scared' he 'loves his children too much' - after he was left utterly devastated by the loss of his mother. The late night TV host was the only child of a widowed mother, and says her death caused him an intense grief. So distraught was the father-of-three, that he now worries his devotion to his children could cause them a similar pain in future. Devastated: Carson Daly says he's 'scared of loving my kids too much'... after being left distraught by the death of his mother; he is pictured with wife Siri Pinter and their children London, Etta and Jackson back in 2017 Loving father: Carson with his girls Speaking on the Today show on Thursday, he reflected on the loss of his mother Pattie and stepfather Richard within two months in 2017. 'My parents were overly proud,' he told Hoda Kotb. 'I sometimes try to love my kids less, almost on purpose because I'm so scared of loving them too much.' The Santa Monica-born and raised TV host said his mother's love was intense and unwavering. Close: Carson lost his mother Pattie in 2017; the two are seen in 2013 'My mom especially loved me so much. It was almost too much. And I know that now because when she died, the hurt was a transference of the love. 'It hurt so much because I'm so bummed that that love isn't there anymore. And that's a byproduct of her love for me.' After the loss of his mother, Daly began thinking about his own love for daughters London, four, Etta, six, and son Jackson, 10. 'That's the greatest gift you can give your kids, but it's scary,' the 45-year-old reflected. 'It's a scary proposition too. I find myself falling in love with my kids and I almost want to put a little bit of a guard there out of fear.' Opening up: Carson spoke to Hoda Kotb on The Today Show Share or comment on this article: All rights reserved for this news site dailymail and under his responsibility