Bethenny Frankel wiped away tears while discussing late on/off boyfriend Dennis Shields on Thursday during the first part of the RHONY reunion on Bravo.
The 48-year-old Skinnygirl lifestyle brand creator was asked early during the season 11 reunion about Dennis, who died of a drug overdose last August at his apartment in Trump Tower in New York City at age 51.
Reunion host Andy Cohen, 51, noted that Dennis had accompanied Bethenny to the last several reunions of The Real Housewives Of New York City.
Season reunion: Bethenny Frankel got emotional while talking about late boyfriend Dennis Shields on Thursday during the season 11 reunion of The Real Housewives Of New York City
'He liked minutiae,' Bethenny said. 'He's always on my mind. He's very missable'.
She recalled a few of his favorite sayings and Luann de Lesseps, 52, told Bethenny that he 'absolutely adored you'.
'I know. I know. I miss that,' Bethenny said as her voice cracked with emotion.
She later opened up about their relationship after watching clips of herself coping with his death during season 11.
Adored her: The 48-year-old Skinnygirl lifestyle brand creator said Dennis was always on her mind
On/off relationship: Bethenny is shown in June 2016 with on/off boyfriend Dennis who died of a drug overdose last August at his apartment in Trump Tower in New York City
Bethenny wiped away tears after the montage as Andy asked how she was doing nearly a year after Dennis died.
'I'm doing well. I actually think I'm doing well. It comes in waves, there are delayed reactions. I really have moved away from it,' Bethenny said.
Bethenny said that she still can't believe that he's gone.
Moving on: The reality star after watching clips of herself coping with his death during season 11 said she was 'doing well' and has 'moved away from it'
'I loved him deeply, and I don't know if I would have been able to be in the place that I'm in now if he were still here,' she said.
She also acknowledged they were broken up at the time of his death.
'So, we had broken up many times. He was always in my life,' Bethenny said adding that Dennis would promise to change to get back in her life.
Together again: Andy Cohen welcomed the RHONY stars in lower Manhattan for the season 11 reunion
'Truthfully, when you're older, you don't know if you're going to get your big fairytale,' she explained.
'Because I had this security presence in Dennis, where if it was Thanksgiving and I was going to be alone I could always be with him, I wasn't giving myself what I deserved in a relationship,' she added.
Bethenny also revealed that she felt 'alone' in their relationship.
Felt alone: Bethenny revealed that she felt 'alone' in her relationship with Dennis
'Dennis could not be present. We would be together and so strong and very in love, and then he would disappear,' Bethenny said.
She shared that Dennis promised to make Mother's Day special for her and her nine-year-old daughter Bryn.
'I ended up alone for Mother's Day because he went to sleep and he stayed in bed all day,' Bethenny said.
'I was always