Lisa Faulkner has opened up about her her journey towards motherhood and the heartache she felt after failed rounds of IVF.
The former EastEnders star, 47, recalled how she felt when her fertility doctor Mohammed Taranissi told her that her in-vitro fertilisation (IVF) journey was over.
While she is now mother to daughter Belle, 12, through adoption, the road to motherhood wasn't easy in the beginning.
Interview: Lisa Faulkner, 47, has opened up about her her journey towards motherhood and the heartache she felt after failed rounds of IVF (pictured in May 2019)
Speaking about her fertility doctor, Lisa told The Sun: 'I remember thinking: "Why are you letting me go?" I didn’t understand. Everyone else had many goes at IVF and I only had three.
'He said I was mentally and physically done. He said I was on the edge, but I couldn’t see that at the time.'
Lisa added that she found IVF was a 'lonely' experience which was why she wrote her book Meant to Be: My Journey to Motherhood.
She said: 'I finally felt confident enough to write it. Going through IVF was lonely. I wanted the book to hold somebody’s hand through that. There was no book for me.'
Family: While she is now mother to daughter Belle, 12, through adoption, the road to motherhood wasn't easy in the beginning (pictured in 2011)
The TV star discussed her quest to become a mother at the Ideal Home Show in March.
She said: 'I've got a book which comes out in June and it’s about how I had a right nightmare to have my daughter. I went through surrogates, every single way of having a baby before I adopted.
'And there were no books, and there were no people… the only two people I knew who had adopted a child were Angelina Jolie and Madonna, which was fine but there was no one who was like a normal person.
'So I thought I’d like to write a book that holds somebody's hand even if they end up not adopting, but going through those trials of everyone suddenly having babies and it not being so easy for them.