By Mary Mrad For Daily Mail Australia
Published: 13:09 GMT, 14 December 2019 | Updated: 13:09 GMT, 14 December 2019
Home and Away's Ada Nicodemou has opened up about delivering her son Harrison stillborn, eight months into her pregnancy in 2014.
In a candid interview with Stellar magazine, the 42-year-old actress said that it was a very difficult time and she will never completely heal from the heartache.
'The past five years really tested my positive personality. Life will never be the same again; there will obviously be a hole in your heart,' she told the publication.
'Life will never be the same again': Ada Nicodemou (pictured) has spoken candidly about the heartbreaking loss of her stillborn son Harrison in 2014
'We will always remember that child and what could have been,' she added.
Ada went on to say that the process of healing 'is ongoing' but she had to be strong for her oldest son, Johnas, seven, who she shares with ex-husband Chrys Xipolitas.
'A lot of people come up and say sorry about Harrison, but I found that really difficult because I don't want to break down in front of them,' she said.
Devastating: In 2014, Ada and ex-husband Chrys Xipolitas (pictured) announced news of their second pregnancy. Just months later the couple revealed that Harrison was delivered stillborn
'We will always remember what could