Roxanne Pallett admits she's GLAD 'punch-gate' happened and compares herself to ...

Roxanne Pallett has given her first interview since marrying American firefighter Jason Carrion.

The disgraced star, 37, has reflected on the aftermath of the infamous 'punch-gate' furor she was involved in during Celebrity Big Brother 2018 - when she wrongfully accused actor Ryan Thomas of maliciously hitting her - and how that led her to meet her now-husband Jason, 33. 

Speaking to Closer magazine, Roxanne admitted she was almost 'grateful' for the drama as it led her to America where she met Jason, and explained that she can relate to the way Meghan Markle must feel.

Out of darkness: Roxanne Pallett has given her first interview since marrying American firefighter Jason Carrion

Out of darkness: Roxanne Pallett has given her first interview since marrying American firefighter Jason Carrion

'I never thought I'd be smiling again,' she said. 'I've met the love of my life and I feel mentally stronger. I truly believe all the negativity I went through pushed me to this point.

'In a way, I'm grateful for all that went wrong, even though it was brutal. It was worth all the heartache because now I'm living my best life.'

Despite the meticulously-catalogued fall-out from 'punch-gate' - which eventually saw her removed privately from the CBB house, interviewed by host Emma Willis without a live audience present, end her engagement to her then-boyfriend and lock herself away for months - Roxanne has encouraged Jason to research her online so that there are no secrets between them.

'He knows everything,' she said. 'I don't hide anything from him, I'm so transparent. 

'The One': The disgraced star, 37, has reflected on the aftermath of the infamous 'punch-gate' furor she was involved in during Celebrity Big Brother 2018... and how that led her to meet her now-husband Jason, 33

Stronger: Speaking to Closer magazine, Roxanne admitted she was almost 'grateful' for the drama as it led her to America where she met Jason

Stronger: Speaking to Closer magazine, Roxanne admitted she was almost 'grateful' for the drama as it led her to America where she met Jason

'I urged him to go on the internet and read for himself, because I joked it would take forever to tell him. There's no stone unturned – I wanted to be completely honest as I've had years of pretending and it was draining.

'I've told him my regrets, my truths, and the weight of being in the public eye for the last 15 years. He wasn't fazed at all – he's intelligent and compassionate and his nature is to run towards those in need of help, which is why he's an incredible firefighter.'

'For the first time, I'm with a man who sees me and not the perks of my fame. Jason is only interested in me for who I am, not what TV show or magazine I've been in

'I always had one foot out the door with my exes because I never fully trusted their agenda, and I was never the real me. But I love who I am with Jason.'

Referencing the fact that Meghan Markle and Prince Harry have recently announced they are quitting England for Canada, Roxanne said: 'I didn't feel welcome in England. I was hounded, ridiculed and vilified for over a year. I felt like the country was against me'

Referencing the fact that Meghan Markle and Prince Harry have recently announced they are quitting England for Canada, Roxanne said: 'I didn't feel welcome in England. I was hounded, ridiculed and vilified for over a year. I felt like the country was against me'

Before the storm: Roxanne left the UK for the US - where she wasn't known for the CBB incident [pictured on her way into the reality show house in summer 2018]

Before the storm: Roxanne left the UK for the US - where she wasn't known for the CBB incident [pictured on her way into the reality show house in summer 2018]

Roxanne eventually left the UK for the US - where she wasn't known for the CBB incident.

Referencing the fact that Meghan Markle and Prince Harry have recently announced they are quitting England for Canada, Roxanne said: 'I didn't feel welcome in England. I was hounded, ridiculed and vilified for over a year. I felt like the country was against me.

'For a long time, I felt exiled and was being told to disappear by online bullies. In a way, I can understand why Meghan left. I'm so happy she's had the inner strength to say, "I'm not happy here, let's make a change."

'I'd encourage anyone who is going through a tough time to have faith that things can turn around as they have for me.'

Roxanne says of Jason that they bonded because they shared 'the same regrets of hiding struggles and forcing smiles' and that he wasn't put off by what she had been through.

She said: 'I always had one foot out the door with my exes because I never fully trusted their agenda, and I was never the real me. But I love who I am with Jason'

She said: 'I always had one foot out the door with my exes because I never fully trusted their agenda, and I was never the real me. But I love who I am

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