Gigi Hadid has revealed she had days where she worried if she was good enough to be a mother while pregnant with her daughter Khai, ten months.
The model, 26, told how she kept a 'good journal' and a 'bad journal' which she thinks she might give to Khai one day.
Speaking in the August issue of Harper's Bazaar, where she also posed for a stunning photoshoot, Gigi told how her boyfriend Zayn Malik, 28, has fitted in well to her family.
Candid: Gigi Hadid has revealed she had days where she worried if she was good enough to be a mother while pregnant with her daughter Khai, ten months
On her pregnancy anxieties, she said: 'During my pregnancy, I had one journal that I called my good journal and one journal that I called my bad journal.
'They weren't that literal, but one was more for the memories, for Khai. Maybe one day I'll give her the bad journal just to be real about it.'
Asked what was inside the bad journal, she said: 'Anxieties and days where I felt like, "Am I good enough to be a mom?" I didn't want to feel guilty about feeling those things or writing those things down. I just liked the separation.
'I also have sketch pads where I'll watercolor-sketch, and sometimes I end up writing there too. I write on the back of receipts and keep those in a notebook.
Memories: The model, 26, told how she kept a 'good journal' and a 'bad journal' which she thinks she might give to Khai one day
'I'm not particular about it, and my journals are everywhere around the house. I just pick up whichever one is closest to me and write.'
Gigi told how her family often have deep discussions over the dinner table, which Zayn has fit right into.
She said: 'At first he was like, 'How do I get a word in edgewise?' But now he is very comfortable. He speaks his mind.
'When he's in the middle of a family thing and everyone's like, "Zayn, whose side are you on?" he's charming. He's usually on my mom's side. So he's smart in that sense.'
Relationship: Speaking in the August issue of Harper's Bazaar , where she also posed for a stunning photoshoot, Gigi told how her boyfriend Zayn Malik, 28, has fitted in well to her family
Honest: On her pregnancy anxieties, she said: 'During my pregnancy, I had one journal that I called my good journal and one journal that I called my bad journal'
Worries: Asked what was in the bad journal, she said: 'Anxieties and days where I felt like, "Am I good enough to be a mom?" I didn't want to feel guilty about
