Real Housewives' Taylor Armstrong was living in 'constant state of anxiety' ...

A new Real Housewives tell-all revealed that Taylor Armstrong was living in a 'constant state of anxiety' during her physically abusive marriage to husband Russell before he died by suicide after she filed for divorce.

In the new book, Not All Diamonds and Rosé: The Inside Story of The Real Housewives From the People Who Lived It by Dave Quinn and published by Andy Cohen Books, Taylor recalled fearing for life between physical altercations with Russell to dealing with insignificant tiffs with the women of Real Housewives of Beverly Hills. 

'In the middle of all the arguing with the girls, it was more scary for me to go home to Russell,' Taylor said before adding that she believed Russell was convinced 'he would absolutely be loved by America.' 

Taylor starred on RHOBH when it first began airing in 2010, and worked alongside Camille Grammer, Adrienne Maloof, Lisa Vanderpump, and Kim and Kyle Richards in the first three seasons of the popular Bravo program before quitting the show. 

'As we got deeper into filming, we would get calls where Taylor would describe arguments with her husband that were not outright physical abuse but sounded really concerning,' producer Alex Baskin recalled. 

Baskin noted that production offered to put her and the couple's daughter, Kennedy, up in a hotel if she was ever 'fearful' for their safety, but Taylor would ultimately refuse any assistance and then deny the issues as 'misunderstandings.'

She believed the show's cameras 'did provide some protection' from the abuse she was suffering at home under Russell's control and thought the shooting schedule might 'keep him under control.'