She recently split from boyfriend Oliver Tasker after experiencing a miscarriage in September.
And on Thursday night, Stephanie Davis, 28, broke down in tears over her desire to have a family unit and admitted she feels like 'the worst mum' to son Caben, four, for 'letting people into his life.'
The single soap star took to her Instagram Stories where she shared multiple raw videos of herself, in which she insisted that if she didn't have Caben she 'wouldn't be here' and expressed feeling 'guilty and sorry for him' because he's 'never had a dad.'
Heartbreaking: On Thursday night, Stephanie Davis broke down in tears over her desire to have a family unit and admitted she feels like 'the worst mum' to son Caben, four
After staying up late on her own to put up Christmas decorations at Caben's request, she got emotional while opening up about her young son, whose father is Stephanie's estranged ex Jeremy McConnell.
She told her followers: 'It's like he's old at heart. It makes me feel dead sad for him because he's just a lot older than what he is. He's always been my best mate and it's been hard for both of us recently.
'He's had a lot of change, and I feel so bad for letting people into his life for just... arghh.
'It's been hard for me as well. I thought this Christmas would be different. I thought I'd be pregnant and having my baby and... Oh my god, I'm an absolute emotional wreck at the moment.'
Emotional: The single soap star took to her Instagram Stories where she shared multiple raw videos of herself, in which she insisted that if she didn't have Caben she 'wouldn't be here'
Family: After staying up late on her own to put up Christmas decorations, she got emotional while opening up about her young son, whose father is her estranged ex Jeremy McConnell
While tears fell, Stephanie branded her son 'the little man of the house' while admitting that she feels as though the world is 'on her shoulders.'
She said: 'It's just been really hard. Looking at him before when he came out, honestly it just broke my heart, because he's always been like the little man of the house.
'I wish that I could have given him better. But ya know what? It's life isn't it? And you've just got to keep going.
'I feel like we've got the world on our shoulders. Made up I got the tree up for him tonight, and he's made up and he's gone to bed dead happy.
'I just feel like the worst mum in the world. I just feel like it's just been a bit s**t but that's life, innit? I'm all over the place tonight.'
Guilt: Stephanie expressed feeling feeling 'guilty and sorry for him' because he's 'never had a dad' and her regret over 'letting people into his life'
Little man: While tears fell, Stephanie branded her son 'the little man of the house' while admitting that she feels as though the world is 'on her shoulders'
A short while later, Stephanie posted another video, telling fans: 'Don't be worrying about me, I'm alright. It's just this time of the year and stuff isn't it? It's just hard.
'Hits you when it's Christmas... Family stuff and that. I think for so many years I've tried, and I thought I'd be in a different situation than what it is now.
'But, we've got a roof over our head, food in the fridge, so we're the luckiest people ever because some people haven't got that...
'And I'm gonna stop absolutely whinging my eyes out now. I just feel sorry for him [Caben]. Breaks my heart, he's just my best mate. I don't know what I'd do without him.
'He's just the most beautiful boy. I dunno what I've done to deserve him, but I'm lucky to have him because I know if I didn't have him I wouldn't be here.'
Festive blues: 'Hits you when it's Christmas... Family stuff and that. I think for so many years I've tried, and I thought I'd be in a different situation than what it is now' admitted the star
Stephanie reasoned: 'I'm so lucky because I've got Cath, my mum, my dad and everything but it's just like when you see families and stuff. I always just wanted that family unit, and it's just hard but I know it'll happen one day.
'I think I'm just thinking what it would have been like if I had the baby as well and stuff but they say everything happens for a reason, so... On we plod.
'I can't wait to see the back of this year. Roll on 2022, because honestly it can't get any worse than this.'
After taking another short break, Stephanie, still crying her eyes out, returned to express how guilty she feels for bringing her ex Oliver into Caben's life.
Heartbroken: 'I think I'm just thinking what it would have been like if I had the baby as well and stuff but they say everything happens for a reason, so... On we plod' said Stephanie
She said: 'Because he never had a dad and stuff it makes me feel dead guilty and sorry for him, but I know he's got me.
'And obviously, I let my ex partner into his life and I just feel like, he's four so he's asking questions that I don't know how to answer. It's just sad.
'He'll ask where people are and if they're coming back and it just breaks ya. I wish that... then I hate myself then and I wish I'd never let anyone come into his life.
'And you can't just not live... I would have done that not thinking life was gonna work out in a certain way. I just feel really bad
