Wednesday 6 July 2022 10:45 AM Louise Thompson fears she has 'brain damage' and a 'form of dementia' trends now

Louise Thompson has shared fears that she has 'brain damage' and 'a form of dementia' as she updated fans on her recovery from PTSD and post-natal anxiety.

Taking to Instagram to pen a lengthy post, the Made In Chelsea star admitted that her mental health struggles have come close to 'destroying her family,' just a week after revealing she had begun 'talking therapy' following another stint in hospital. 

Louise also admitted that seven months after giving birth to her son Leo she still 'dreads life' and has reached a 'weird stage' where she is 'blocking everything out,' and added that she's begun to worry her fiancé Ryan Libbey is suffering from PTSD.

Louise shared the insight into her health woes alongside a trio of candid snaps taken during her current beach holiday, where she donned a loose-fitting orange dress.

Her caption began with the question of 'where she was at with her recovery,' with the star writing: 'Mmmmm. I'm at a weird stage now where I'm blocking everything out. Maybe I said that way back at the beginning? 

'I can't actually remember much because I'm still trying to protect myself from the pain. I don't want to re-read. This condition feels very repetitive. Finally it DOES feel like everything happened a long time ago but it also feels like it happened to someone else and not me. 

'I kind of feel like I've erased my entire past and started life as a totally new person. A sometimes sick person. People tell me how far I've come, but I can't remember how far. 

'I can remember a weird amount of things from my childhood… sensory things will remind me of the strangest memories from way back when I was 5-15, but then I've sort of erased everything between then and now.

'Now that I mention it, sometimes ALL I can feel is sensory stuff, like the feeling I get when I go from a hot room to a cold room and it helps me connect to the world around me.'

Louise continued: 'To put it bluntly I'm struggling to move on with 'normal' life. Every day I feel physically very unwell and every other day I seem to have an hour long period (sometimes longer) where I feel messed up in my brain - I don't know what it is, but it feels like brain damage or a mini stroke. 

'Maybe it's a weird processing experience. It feels like I'm either really REALLY low in some specific chemical/hormone or way too high. But either way I can't think properly or talk properly during those episodes. 

'It sort of feels like I'm having a major allergic reaction to something in my brain. I go from feeling really low and agitated to then feeling a rush of something and then I get the worst cramping around my pelvis but then my brain levels out, a bit like the chemicals have been restored. I've been told that this isn't a result of my mental health medication?!? Can anyone help with the physical side of things? 

'I've tried eliminating certain things and tracking my lifestyle but I can't figure out what it is. There doesn't seem to be a pattern and it's not to do with triggers. Weirdly I only seem to NOT get it when I don't eat anything at all in a day (if I'm travelling I have to fast otherwise I have to fast because otherwise I have major gut issues).'

The star went onto write that she wants to find a way to 'act normal' when she struggles with 'brain breakdowns,' because she doesn't want her son Leo to see her 'broken.'

'My system is still so out of balance. Last night I was up all night with the worst flu like symptoms. Agony to touch everywhere. I couldn't lift Leo. I feel like I have inflammation all over my body, particularly in my neck, chest and brain,' Louise continued in her post.

'I know I definitely have it in my gastro tract, but why is my entire neck and head so sore? And why do I have such weird nerve sensations all over the right hand side of my face. My mind has been EVERYWHERE and now I just want someone to fix me. 

'I know that I want to go back to being normal Louise so why won't my body and brain just let me. As someone that is still trying to shift the label of 'control freak' this has been really hard to manage because I'm constantly seeking answers and am not getting very far. I don't think anyone I speak to can relate. 

'Just when I think I might be turning a corner I find myself feeling really ill. That puts me right back in a bad place. Then I question : Will I ever feel healthy again? And more importantly will I ever be able to think like a normal person again?'

Louise then admitted she's begun to fear she has 'a weird form of dementia' after she struggled with 'major memory losses between large periods of time.'

She continued: 'Sadly I'm struggling to exercise too. When I have tried recently I've felt really unwell the next day. Mainly mentally low but physically battered too. That was always my go-to cure for all ailments mental and physical but now it knocks me for six. 

'It's getting really boring not being able to do the things I love, even with a bit of Leo help. I kind of dread my life, but then sometimes it's manageable. 

'Sometimes I even have a really good time, but then when I'm in a bad place I can't understand how I can have a good time at all. I just have to repeat this too shall pass. Sadly I can't just pull myself out of the funk with happy thoughts or ''feel good'' practises.'