Khloe Kardashian admits she feels 'less connected' to her newborn son trends now

Khloe Kardashian feels 'guilty' over her lack of connection to her newborn son Tatum and wishes people were more 'honest' with her about the realities of surogacy.

She speaks openly about the 'transactional' experience while hanging with Kim Kardashian and Scott Disick in the season three premiere episode of Hulu's The Kardashians on Thursday. 

Khloe's baby boy was born via surrogate last July and he is the second child she shares with philandering ex-boyfriend Tristan Thompson. They also have five-year-old daughter True.  

The Good American founder, 38, learned just weeks after they went through with an embryo transfer in November 2021 that he'd secretly fathered a child with fitness model Maralee Nichols.

Khloe recalls just how 'hard the surrogate process' was for her, with Kim reiterating that her sister had 'a hard time accepting' it all.

'It was a mindf**k,' Khloe remarks. 'It's just the weirdest thing.'

'I do think there is a difference when the baby is in your belly, the baby actually feels your real heart. There is no one else on this planet who will feel you from the inside like that,' explains Kim, who used surrogacy for two of her four pregnancies.

'People can connect in different ways, some cannot connect.'

Scott asks Khloe: 'So do you feel less connected?'

Khloe reluctantly admits to the disconnect but also acknowledges that people have told her it can take time.

She does appear to envy the fact that Kim had an 'easy' time connecting with her two youngest children born via surrogacy.

'I definitely buried my head in the sand during that pregnancy and that I didn't digest what was happening,' Khloe explains in confessional.

'So I think when I went to the hospital, I really think that was the first time that it really registered,' she explains.

Khloe insists that her feelings have 'nothing to do with the baby,' but more so the circumstances and how it felt 'transactional' to her.

'You're just like, "Ok, we're having a baby and this is my son and I'm taking him home with me,"' she explains.

'I definitely was in a state of shock from my entire experience. I felt really guilty that this woman just had my baby and I take the baby and I go in another room and we are sort of separated.

'I felt that it was such a transactional experience because it's not about him.'

All in all, Khloe says that she wishes she had known more about surrogacy and the complexities of if before moving forward.

'I wish someone was honest about surrogacy and the difference of it. It doesn't mean it's bad or good. It's still great. It's just very different,' she says.

To close out their convo, Kim reminds Khloe and Scott that if their brother Rob doesn't end up having a son in his lifetime then the 'Kardashian name is dead.'

'What does a world without the Kardashian name look like?' one of the producers ask Kim in confessional.

She replies with a giggle: 'I can insert a lot of things that other people would say. It's like less drama.'

'Men can have babies until they're like 90, so we have time for Rob,' Khloe tells Kim. 'It's gonna happen, give him time.'

She also takes fans a long as she embarks on a 'really scary' journey after discovering a suspicious bump on her face that turned out to be melanoma.

Khloe — who is predisposed to the skin cancer — is asked about the 'band-aid on you face' by Scott during his visit to her house.

She tells the audience that she had a bump on her face biopsied after keeping an eye on it for 'seven or eight months.'

'I am just waiting for the results,' says Khloe, who remarked that the ordeal was just another blow following her ex-boyfriend Tristan Thompson's paternity scandal and the birth of their son via surrogate last year.

Khloe's mom Kris Jenner reveals the results of the biopsy while speaking to younger daughter Kylie Jenner at a party celebrating Kendall Jenner's 818 Tequila line.

She pulls the Kylie Cosmetics founder aside and tells her that the bump is cancerous.

'I'm just a little worried and now she has to have it removed,' Kris reveals in whisper.

'Wow,' Kylie reacts.

Kris says that Khloe has a 'history of melanoma and cancerous legions' so this latest bout on her face is 'very concerning' to her and the family.

'You have to go in and you don't know how much of your cheek they're gonna take,' Kris explains to Kylie of Khloe's next steps.

In confessional, Kylie recalls seeing the bump on Khloe's face and how this entire situation is 'really scary.'

'I just hope that everything's going to be ok,' the mother-of-two adds.

After learning of her sister's predicament, Kylie finds Khloe at the party and pulls her aside to talk to her one-on-one about what the procedure entails.

'I have to get a plastic surgeon to cut the whole thing out,' Khloe says bluntly.

'They said that they won't know until they open up my cheek how big they have to cut.'

Khloe admits that having cancer on her face is especially worrisome since it's so visible.

'I just don't want a big scar on my face.'

Khloe explains in confessional that doctors told her it was 'incredibly rare' for someone at her age to have this so 'they have to go in more to see if it spread.

'So at this point it seems a little scary.'

Fans get a closer look at Khloe's bandaged face while visiting her sister Kourtney Kardashian at the home she shares with Travis Barker in Calabasas.

Khloe previously had surgery at age 19 to remove melanoma on her back.

In October 2022, the mother-of-two took to her stories to explain the bandage on her face after fans began asking what it was for.

She confessed that she has to undergo an 'immediate operation' after having the lingering bump on her cheek checked out, which was later determined to be cancerous.

At the time, Khloe happily stated that her margins were clear and that she was focused on her healing process.

The episode kicks off with Khloe and Scott's — who is the ex-boyfriend and baby daddy of Kourtney Kardashian — home hangout out.

They are soon joined by Khloe's big sister Kim.

Scott asks Kim and Khloe — both of whom are recently single — if their noticeably slimmer frames are the result of 'breakup diets.'

'Break-up diets?' Kim exclaims, before giving Scott a funny face.

Kim's last dated SNL star Pete Davidson for nine months while Khloe parted ways with her philandering ex-boyfriend Tristan Thompson in 2021 after learning he'd secretly fathered a child with another woman.

Though there have been rumors that she's rekindled their controversial romance for the third time.

The sisters' bodies have gone through major transformations over the past few years, which has led to accusations that the duo are taking Hollywood' hottest weight loss drug Ozempic.

Ozempic is manufactured by Danish pharmaceutical giant Novo Nordisk and costs around $900 per dose.

The injectable version can be used on the stomach, thigh or arm, and it quickly works to suppress a person's appetite, which can be useful in allowing them to shed weight.

It is currently only approved by the FDA as a type 2 diabetes treatment, but many medical providers have begun prescribing it off label as a weight-loss drug recently, and it has skyrocketed in popularity among wealthy customers looking to slim down.

However, the rush of rich people looking to buy the drug has created shortages that harm diabetic people who most need it for their health.

Khloe has slammed claims that her or any of her sisters have used the medication to achieve their incredibly svelte figures.

Instead she credited their mutual shrink downs to strict diet and excerise.

Kim faced backlash last year after she admitted to dropping 16 pounds in just two weeks in order to fit into Marilyn Monroe's dress for the 2022 Met Gala.

She insisted that she 'didn't do anything unhealthy' to achieve her goal. She ended up losing five more pounds in the weeks that followed — bringing her total weight loss to 21 pounds.

During Thursday night's episode, Kim calls back to her nine-month romance with Pete, 29.

'I'm single...,' she tells the camera reluctantly, after producers reminded her that she was in the throws of love in season two.

She continues: '…and I'm not ready to mingle and that's ok.'

'So, how are you feeling [about] the first breakup since being married,' Scott asks Kim.

Fans will remember that Pete was Kim's first boyfriend following her shock divorce from controversial rapper Kanye West, 25, in February 2021. They were married for six years and welcomed four children together.

She began dating Pete that October and the romance sparked a fire inside Kim's ex-husband, who waged an online war on the comedian.

Despite this, Kim and Pete continued to date until August 2022.

'Breakups are just not my thing,' Kim tells Scott.

'Are they anybodies thing?' he asks rhetorically.

Kim elaborates: 'It's just that I'm proud of myself.'

The SKIMS founder reveals that she and Pete had had 'talks and talks' about calling it quits before deciding to go through with it.

'We'd been talking about it. So it was just both of us just, like, communicating really well about it,' she explains. 'It's obviously sad.'

'How long were you guys together?' Scott asks.

'Nine months,' Kim replies. 'That's like a long time. I don't have random hookups and relationships, you know what I mean? And everything I've been in is kind of like a longtime.'

Kim also says that she was plagued by a lot of guilt over what Pete had to endure during their time together — alluding to her ex-husband's online abuse.

'There was a lot of guilt. He went through a lot because, you know, my relationship.'

In confessional she admits to sometimes being concerned about how her romantic life will be moving forward.

'Sometimes I'm like, 'Who is ever gonna wanna date me? I have four kids. I'm in my 40s,"' she admits in confessional. 'Who wants to deal with all the [drama]?'

Despite the intrusive thoughts, Kim knows that her 'person' won't be deterred by her extraordinary life and, instead, will prove to be a supportive force.

'My person will be like, 'F**k all that! Like, it's gonna be hard but we're together! And like, we're gonna do this,' she muses.

'I'm just waiting for that person.'

Later in the episode, Kourtney Kardashian keeps Khloe and production waiting for nearly 20 minutes so she can enjoy a quick hookup with husband Travis Barker.

Kourtney reveals to her sister — who had stopped by to visit the couple at their home — that she's 'ovulating' and needs to quickly take advantage of the opportunity.

'If you give us five minutes to go do something really fast...,' Kourtney hints through grinning teeth before leaving the room with the Blink-182 rocker.

'Are you really ovulating,' asks Khloe. 'Yes I am,' Kourtney confidently replies as she strips off her microphone pac and leaves it on a chair.

'Well, let's see if it takes five minutes,' Khloe says, before starting the timer on her phone.

The Good American founder tells the cameras that this moment reminds her of the time when she fell asleep in her parents Kris and Caitlyn Jenner's closet and woke up to them 'having sex.

'And this is sort of triggering me.'

What was supposed to be a five-minute break turned into a 15-minute sex session.

Kourtney eventually returns and Khloe asks her to 'guess' the time on her stopwatch.

Khloe shows her the screen and Kourtney hilariously remarks that that's 'record time' for them.

Kourtney tells fans that 'wife life' is treating her 'amazing.'

The couple happily wed in May 2022 at Dolce and Gabbana's Portofino Villa after legally tying the knot the week prior at a Santa Barbara courthouse.

Kourtney then confirms to fans that she is done with IVF treatment after hoping it would help her conceive a child with husband Travis.

They embarked on the journey last year, which she previously confessed had not 'been the most amazing experience.'

The reality star is mother to Mason, 13; Penelope, 10; and Reign, eight— with her former partner Scott Disick, whom she dated from 2005 until 2015.

'We would love a baby more than anything but I just really believe in what God has in store for us,' she explains in confessional.

Kourtney notes that she had 'seven frozen eggs from years ago before Travis' that those around her pushed her to get.

'When I was 38 or 39 everyone was like pushing me to do that and most of mine didn't survive the thaw because eggs are one cell and none of them made it to an embryo,' she reveals.

The mother-of-three is aware that the 'freezing of the eggs is not a guarantee.'

Regardless, Kourtney tells Khloe that she's aware that her and Travis already 'have a full, blessed life.'

'All the thing that came with IVF took a toll on me physically. My health is still impacted because it's hormones. And also mentally it took a toll,' she explains.

'So, I think just being happy is most important and being a good parent to my kids. We are just embracing that whatever is meant to be will be.'

Kourtney tells Khloe that

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