Every day for the past 30 years, Samantha Mischewski has struggled with permanent injuries inflicted when her father threw her against a wall as a baby.
Adding to her pain is knowing that man, John Raymond Holschier, is now walking free after a judge ruled he no longer needed supervision despite a shocking rap sheet.
Holschier killed his wife Betina Givorshner, 22, inside their family home on Sydney's north shore in September 1989, before throwing their 13-month-old daughter against a wall.
Samantha, 30, has never spoken about the horrific crime until now, and says she is appalled at a NSW Supreme Court decision last week to allow Holschier, 51, to live without supervision.
'We're just waiting for him to die. We're just waiting for him to not be here,' Samantha told Daily Mail Australia.
John Raymond Holschier (pictured), 51, is a free man walking the streets of Sydney almost 30 years after he bashed his wife to death with a brick and threw his 13-month-old daughter into a wall - leaving her with permanent brain issues and disabilities
Samantha Mischewski (pictured) was thrown against a wall when she was a 13-month-old baby by Holschier, her father. Speaking for the first time this week she told Daily Mail Australia she is counting down the days until he dies
'Obviously we wish he could've died in jail, but we kind of always knew that eventually it was going to come down to him having his parole restrictions taken off.
'It's not ideal, but you know what, it could be a blessing in disguise. He hasn't had freedom in 30 years so I feel like it might only be a matter of time before he stuffs up and goes back (to prison) again.'
We wish he could've died in jail
Samantha Mischewster, daughter
However, despite a judge admitting Holschier potentially still poses a 'severe' risk to the community, the NSW Supreme Court last week rejected an application to keep him under watch.
This means Holschier is free to live in a taxpayer-funded housing commission home in a quiet Sydney street, next door to young families - just like the one he destroyed.
When asked if he was now a changed man, Holschier told Daily Mail Australia: 'Yeah, of course I am.'
Samantha still suffers the effects of her father's cruelty every day, even 30 years after the horrific crime.
'I had a damaged frontal lobe in my brain, so I don't have any peripheral vision and my balance is really poor,' she said.
'It's probably affected me more as I've gotten older, I mean I can't drive at night because my vision is so bad that it is dangerous.
Holschier was first released from prison in 2008, but ended up back behind bars after breaching his parole conditions on a number of occasions. Earlier this month the NSW Supreme Court ruled he no longer needed to be supervised
On September 25, 1989, Holschier murdered his wife Betina Givorshner (left, holding her daughter Samantha) before turning on his little girl and throwing her against a wall. Holschier spent almost 20 years in prison for his cruel crime, but is now a free man
'After he bashed my mother he threw me against a wall and called my grandfather to claim that someone had broken into the house... he tried to make out he hadn't done it,' she said.
'He then went and washed the blood off me, and it wasn't until police arrived that the officer who was holding me said: "Something is not right with this baby".'
He's just my sperm donor... we don't even call him by his first name
Samantha Mischewster, daughter
But it wasn't only physically that she suffered.
Growing up without parents meant her and her sister lived with their grandparents until they were sent to boarding school as teenagers.
Samantha, whose son will turn two on Friday, says she has never regarded Holschier as her father - he is just the man who left her an orphan.
'He's just my sperm donor... we don't even call him by his first name,' she said.
'I went through a bit of a stage when I was about 21 where I wanted to know where I came from, I wanted to meet the man who killed my mother.
'My family knew I was doing it but they were totally against it. They said: "We know the man that did this, he really hurt our family"... so they didn't understand.
- On the evening of September 25, 1989, John Raymond Holschier arrived at his family's home in Daisy Street, Chatswood, on Sydney's north shore
- Holschier and Betina Givorshner had been in a 'stormy' relationship and they became involved in a argument, court facts state
- During the argument Holschier used a brick to repeatedly hit Ms Givorshner over the head, killing her
- He also struck his 13-month-old daughter Samantha with the brick, before he threw her hard against a wall
- Ms Givorshner was rushed to Royal North Shore Hospital where she later died
- Samantha was taken to Campbelltown Children's Hospital and survived, but did suffer lasting brain injuries from the attack
- Holschier was charged with murder and
