Emma Thynn, Viscountess Weymouth, spent last Sunday on the sofa sobbing, 'heartbroken' to be the latest celebrity sent packing from Strictly Come Dancing.
'I'm very hard on myself so I keep reliving every moment of that last dance,' she says.
'I torture myself about every step, every mistake. I did Strictly with my whole heart, my whole soul. I genuinely put everything into it. To be part of it is so amazing. It's...' Her bottom lip trembles.
Emma Thynn, Viscountess Weymouth (pictured at her home at Longleat), said that her time on Strictly Come Dancing took an immense physical and emotional toll
'I did it with so much honesty. It's so exposing.' Then tears overwhelm her.
'I'm not a nutcase,' she weeps. 'I know it's only a TV show, a competition, and that once a week someone has to go home. The sad part is thinking about the dances we [she and partner Aljaz Skorjanec] would have danced but can't now. I wish I had one more chance. I really do.
'Aljaz had an amazing quickstep planned and a paso doble. Strictly is a bubble — a magical bubble — to fall out of it so quickly, so abruptly is...' she searches for the right word and settles upon 'sad'.
Many of us who watched last week's results show — recorded on Saturday but broadcast on Sunday — might well add downright unfair.
For the judges' decision to save pigeon-toed BBC sports presenter Mike Bushell from the chop for a third time in the dance-off was, well, let's just say you wonder if some daft bloke on the Sunday night shift put in the wrong tape.
Emma and dancer partner and Aljaz Skorjanec were left 'heartbroken' after becoming the latest pair to leave the show in a controversial exit
Social media was flooded with comments branding the show a fix. What does Emma, who was tasked with dancing the 'dreaded' samba, think?
'I knew it was a challenging dance to begin with. Everybody dreads it. The other dancers were looking at us as if to say, "poor you". I realise they [the show organisers] have to make sure there's a variety of dances but to go out on the samba was...' She shakes her head.
'You have to respect the judges' decision. I can't change it. I gave it my best shot. Motsi [judge Motsi Mabuse] came to talk to me afterwards. She gave me a hug. I went back to my dressing room and cried.
'Aljaz and [his wife and fellow professional dancer] Janette came up. My mum and sister, Sam, were there too. We had a drink.' She looks up through her tears.
'You know, the saddest thing was when Aljaz bowed to me after the judges' decision. That's what he did on the very first show.
'It isn't just the dancing. It's an emotional and psychological experience. You can't really describe it — the focus, the dedication. It really is all-consuming. I loved every second of it. I was heartbroken after the results show.'
This weekend her husband of six years, the future eighth Marquess of Bath, Ceawlin, Viscount Weymouth, is taking her away to cheer her up after her shock departure
Emma learned in April that she was going to be on the show and was 'thrilled'. She said she has since been touched by the overwhelming support from fans since her exit
She shows me her phone, clearly touched by the support she has received since.
'One mother sent me a video of her daughter crying. Here, look at these tweets. I have about 1,000 messages — properly genuine messages from people who care.'
This weekend her husband of six years, the future eighth Marquess of Bath, Ceawlin, Viscount Weymouth, is taking her away to cheer her up. He introduces himself after I arrive and you know he'd move heaven and earth to make her happy. Emma tells me how supportive he has been.
We meet in the Weymouths' apartment on the first floor of Longleat, one of the most spectacular stately homes in the country.
The couple work hard to ensure the 10,000-acre estate in Wiltshire turns a profit. With its famous safari park, it first opened its doors to the public 70 years ago. The publicity generated by Strictly no doubt helps.
Emma learned in April she was going to be on the show and was 'thrilled'.
'It was so difficult,' she says. 'I've never danced before. You're doing something that's out of your comfort zone. As the show goes on, everyone's exhausted. There's no time to recover. A bone in my foot dropped out of place from the jive. I got this pain from here to here.'
Every year Strictly seems to find itself at the heart of a Twitter storm, with many arguing that it's often celebrities of colour who leave the competition earliest but Emma has refused to be drawn in. Pictured: Aljaz and Emma during a previous dress rehearsal
She takes off a black pump and points from beneath her foot to above her ankle. 'That was agony. And, last week, doing the samba, I pulled a rib muscle.
'I had some sort of inflammation here,' she holds her ribs 'and the most terrible stomach ache.
'I couldn't eat all day before what turned out to be our last dance but, obviously, you have to go and perform. Of course, this is nothing compared to what happened to poor Will [Bayley, the Paralympian who had to withdraw after injuring his knee].
'My heart really went out to him. The part [in the results show] when you're waiting to hear whether or not you're going to be doing the next week is genuinely frightening. You just hope you're going to get through. I was shaking. It's an out-of-body experience.' Sadly for Emma, last week it was not to be.
Every year Strictly seems to find itself at the heart of a Twitter storm, with many arguing that it's often celebrities of colour who leave the competition earliest.
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Emma, the 33-year-old daughter of an English socialite and a Nigerian oil baron, who will be Britain's first black marchioness when Ceawlin inherits, won't be drawn. She has, however, experienced racism closer to home with her mother-in-law.
They are a famously unconventional family and there is not uncomplicated harmony between the generations. Her 87-year-old father-in-law, Alexander, the Marquess of Bath, lives on the top floor of the house with his erotic murals and visiting 'wifelets' to keep him happy.
Yet despite living in the same building,