A gangland lawyer who became a police informant before moving overseas with her two young children for safety believes the police pose the biggest threat to her life.
Nicola Gobbo, the woman known as Lawyer X, spoke to ABC's 7.30 from an undisclosed location about becoming a police informant and how it changed the course of her life.
Ms Gobbo was a registered informer three times on and off between 1996 and 2009, ratting on clients including drug kingpin Tony Mokbel and underworld killer Carl Williams.
Her informing is 'a complicated story', she told the program, breaking her silence despite a year of requests from a royal commission for her to share her story.
Nicola Gobbo, the woman known as Lawyer X, spoke to ABC's 7.30 from an undisclosed location about becoming a police informant
'The easiest way for me to put it is that, it began as an ethical and moral, dilemma for me,' she said.
'Knowing that people were going to be murdered, that morphed into a dependence upon Victoria Police, or a small number of Victorian police officers.
'They made it clear to me that if I didn't continue to assist them and to do what they asked, they would release my name and effectively feed me to the wolves.'
Ms Gobbo said she is 'stranded overseas' with her two young children, which is 'devastating' as parent.
'It remains their belief that they were chased out of their home by police that are trying to take their mummy away. And that to any parent, is beyond devastating,' she said.
Ms Gobbo said she is sick, exhausted and in fear of her life from others and her 'greatest fear is police themselves' who might 'either try to kill me or to lead to a position where I am killed'.
She said Victoria Police warned that if she returned to Australia her two children would be removed from her custody for their safety.
The ABC journalist said people may find Ms Gobbo's fears of police 'staggering' as she had represented the likes of Williams.
Ms Gobbo (pictured in 2008) was a registered informer three times on and off between 1996 and 2009, ratting on clients including drug kingpin Tony Mokbel and underworld killer Carl Williams
'You are saying you are more scared of the police?' the reporter questioned.
Ms Gobbo replied: 'My fear of them was replaced by a fear of police, which has just grown over time.'
'Look where I am... I am stuck.'
Lawyer X said she has an 'overwhelming guilt' for what her children have