By Adam Mccleery and Daniel Piotrowski for Daily Mail Australia
Published: 07:13 BST, 31 May 2020 | Updated: 07:23 BST, 31 May 2020
A disgraced footballer who was once a rising star with the Socceroos has opened up about confronting his demons while on a four-year ban for using cocaine.
Former Western Sydney Wanderers striker and young Socceroo Kerem Bulut, 28 was banned by footballing authorities in Turkey after taking cocaine in 2018.
Two years into his ban Bulut opened up to The Sydney Morning Herald about his struggles, saying he is close to his breaking point.
Disgraced footballer and former young Socceroo Kerem Bulut (pictured) has opened up about battling his demons as he completes a four-year ban from the sport for testing positive to cocaine
'I don't know if I can last any longer. I try not to break because if I break that will be it,' he said.
'You have to show face to your family, friends and the people who look at you. You let a lot of people down.
'My biggest enemy and my biggest problem is myself.'
Bulut's four-year ban is the longest being served by an Australian athlete for a first-time recreational drug offence.
He said he had finally become 'friends' with himself again after struggling with confidence issues for years.
Now the once-gifted striker is turning his attention and focus toward returning to the sport.
It's hoped a recent change in the World Anti-Doping Agency's penalties for cocaine could create a pathway for Bulut to cut 18 months off his ban.
In late 2019 WADA agreed to a plan to reduce the penalties for recreational drug use, arguing they often have no performance enhancing effects.
A statement from WADA said the focus should be on the health