Anthony Bourdain's (right) estranged ex-wife (left) is speaking out about their relationship for the first time since his suicide in 2018
Anthony Bourdain's estranged ex-wife has revealed how she watched him take a dark turn after they separated and said she wishes she'd kept a closer eye on him before his suicide in 2018.
Ottavia Busia-Bourdain spoke out about her relationship with Bourdain for the first time in the new documentary Roadrunner, which takes a deep dive into the final year of the famed chef's life.
Describing her husband of nearly a decade after the pair separated in 2016, Busia-Bourdain said: 'He was not the same person.
'Something changed and became really heavy but he started going to therapy at a certain point and I thought: 'I can take a step back, I don't have to be like you know always so worried about him.'
With tears streaming down her face she added: 'I feel like that is something that I will always ... I should have kept an eye on him more.'
Ottavia Busia-Bourdain (right) reveals how she watched Bourdain (left) take a dark turn after they separated and said she wishes she'd kept a closer eye on him
Throughout the film released on Friday, Busia shared the emotional evolution of their love story beginning with how the couple was first introduced by chef Eric Ripert, their separation in 2016 and everything in between.
Busia-Bourdain explained that their lifestyles took a toll on their family, saying that Bourdain seemed to always want the 'idyllic picture of family and ordinary life' and that when he got that, it 'wasn't enough anymore'.
The couple, who never legally divorced, separated after nine years of marriage, but continued to co-parent their daughter, Ariane.
Busia-Bourdain said she is so grateful for their child and all the memories the family shared together, noting that she chooses to remember Bourdain in that light instead of focusing on his death.
'I think this is the last time I'll ever talk publicly about it because that's not the way I want to remember him,' she said. 'I want to remember when we were together, all the amazing things that we'd done and the amazing person that he was.'
Busia-Bourdain, pictured with Bourdain and their daughter, says her husband of nearly a decade 'was not the same person' after their split
Busia-Bourdain (left) said she is so grateful for their daughter and all the memories the family shared together, noting that she chooses to remember Bourdain (right) in that light instead of focusing on his death
Bourdain died by suicide at the age of 61 on June 8, 2018, while away in France with Ripert, who was reportedly his best friend.
Roadrunner features videos of the star himself interspersed with interviews from those who knew him best, including Busia-Bourdain.
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