Former AFL superstar Dayne Beams has shared his confronting drug and gambling addictions that prematurely ended his career.
The Collingwood midfielder shocked the AFL in the middle of the 2019 season when he announced he was taking indefinite leave to battle depression.
Beams, 31, was also battling a gambling and prescription drug addiction and didn't take to the footy field again before announcing his retirement a year later.
He opened up about his time in rehab to deal with his addictions ahead of his upcoming appearance on Big Brother VIP.
The father-of-two recently shared a handwritten three page letter to gambling and opioids, as if they were people, that he wrote during his rehab stint.
Dayne Beams (pictured right with wife Kelly) has shared more detail about the drug and gambling addictions which brought his AFL career to an abrupt end
'I don't even know where to start with you. Yes, I made the choice to abuse both of you, but you both let me and controlled me and I won't have it anymore, you can get f**ked,' the letter begins.
'I won't let you drain my accounts anymore and won't let you put me in a position of owing people money. I will no longer let you control and dictate my mood.'
Beams poured his heart out about his feelings towards his addictions, admitting they took away his pain and struggles before coming to the realisation they created more problems and anguish in his life.
He declared it was the end of the road in his addictions and he never wanted to see another script for painkillers.
'Nor do I want to see an online bookmaker offering me a great deal knowing they will take my money,' Beams wrote.
Dayne Beams played his last AFL game for Collingwood aged 29 in 2019 before officially announcing his retirement a year later
'This is the end of the road for our relationship. I actually hate you and how you have made me feel and the pain you cause me now.
'I'm not sad about leaving you because you are both pieces of s**t.
'Yes, you make me angry but you know what? You also make me happy as I never want to see you again.'
Beams ends the letter declaring his addictions would not define him as a person.
'I will have the last laugh and I will have plenty of laughs in my new life without you,' he wrote.
The final page of the letter was dedicated to a list of goals he wanted to achieve out of his rehab stint.
They included rediscovering himself, focusing on the important things in life and to not spend so much time on his phone.
'Overall I just want my life back and not have to worry and focus on when I'm going to
