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Shamima Begum has recalled the moment she spoke to her mother for the first time after fleeing Britain to join ISIS in Syria, with the jihadi bride recalling how she replied 'no' when she begged her to come home and 'tried to make me feel all guilty'. 

The 23-year-old even suggested her devastated family were 'responsible' for her plight, saying that their tearful appeals for her to come back to the UK 'put me all over the media'. 

Speaking to BBC podcast I'm Not A Monster, Begum was asked by journalist Joshua Baker how she reacted when she heard her despairing sister begging for her to leave the death cult. 

'I couldn't believe it, I couldn't believe that my sister would travel all the way to Turkey thinking that she could save me,' she said.

Referring to herself, Amira Abase and Kadiza Sultana - the two friends she fled East London with - she continued: 'We all said, ''yeah we want to speak to our families, we have an obligation to at least tell them we got here safely''. 

'The first time I called my mum she was just crying. I felt like she was trying to make me feel guilty. I don't know, maybe it was just emotions but I just didn't say anything to her I let her cry. I just kept telling her I was ok.' 

The journalist asked her 'did she ask you to come home?' to which she replied 'yeah' before they continued their exchange.

'What did you say?'

'Just said no.' 

'So at that point you were committed to the decision you had made?'

'I was not committed but I just didn't want to give her false hope because I didn't think I could leave. 

'I don't want to blame my family but they are in a way responsible for putting me all over the media. 

'But I don't think they knew how far it would go and how big it would become. I blame the media for obsessing over my friends and I so much.'