Loose Women panellist Denise Welch has said she prayed a disaster would happen so that she would no longer feel depressed. The mother-of-two said the thought of a crash had crossed her mind as she flew her and Matthew to Australia where her ex-husband Tim Healy had been filming at the time.
Why doesn't it just go down and then I will be out of this pain?
The 62-year-old shares The 1975 frontman Matt Healy, now 32, and Louis, 20, with her second husband Tim, who she split from in 2012.
Denise recalled the time she had hoped her plane would crash when Matthew was one at the time.Insurance Loans Mortgage Attorney Credit Lawyer
She explained: "The night before I went, this massive depression came on.
“I cannot tell you what it was like to go to the airport and get on that plane with this depression.”
READ MORE: Beckham left 'mortified' after 'awkward' Harry and Meghan row
Denise Welch recalled wishing the plane would crash during her depression battle (Image: GETTY)
Denise Welch said she wouldn't be here today if it wasn't for her loved ones (Image: GETTY)
She added: “When I was in the air - I told Matthew this years later when he was a grown up, I would never have put this on any child - I wished that the plane would go down in my mind.
"I wished that it would, because then I wouldn't have made the decision. And people might go, 'There were other people on the plane, how selfish' - of course.
"It was the point that I wanted something out of my control and I thought, 'Why doesn't it just go down and then I will be out of this pain’.”