Comedian Romesh Ranganathan admits he regularly thinks about taking his own life trends now
Comedian Romesh Ranganathan has admitted he has regularly thought about taking his own life due to a 'horrific' voice in his head.
The presenter, 44, appeared on "The Diary of a CEO podcast and discussed the challenges he's faced through out his life with host Steven Bartlett.
He also said his life experiences have provided him with endless material for his sell out shows.
During the intimate conversation, Romesh said: 'I was thinking about taking my own life regularly, and I'd fantasise about it...
'I think that all comedians are wired slightly differently They've had something happen to them that has made them an outsider in some way.'
'I've got this inner voice that is horrific': Comedian Romesh Ranganathan has admitted he has regularly thought about taking his own life due to a 'horrific' voice in his head
He went on to explain: 'We lived in a nice house. We had a nice car. All the stereotypical things that you mark success with. Then a period of six months, six months, it was a complete 180…'
After bursting onto our screens, Romesh has been constantly working and is always afraid that his success could slip out from under him, stemming from his family struggles as a teenager when his father was sent to prison.
Speaking on his successful career as a comedian, he said: 'I'm addicted to doing Stand-Up. And it makes me better at everything.
'But... I've got this inner voice that is horrific. It will say, 'you're not a very good Dad, you're not a very good husband.'
'I had a run of about six panel shows, and I was in a really bad place, and I turned up to each one of them with the steadfast belief that I was sh*t at this'
When asked what happens when it goes wrong on stage, he added: 'It's horrible. That silence… That never gets easier, man, But you learn more from those gigs. I just need to do the best I possibly can at this gig, I'm not in control of anything that happens after that.'
'Don't think about this goal down the line that you're trying to get to. Do this thing brilliantly, and if you love what you do and you do that, you're on a good path.'
During the intimate conversation, Romesh said: 'I was thinking about taking my own life regularly, and I'd fantasise about it...'
The comic was previously a maths teacher and head of sixth form at Hazelwick school in Crawley, where he had also been a pupil.
It was there he met his wife Leesa, a fellow teacher, who he has now has three children with.
It comes after Romesh revealed that he had a huge rift with his brother Dinesh over money problems following their father's death.
Opening up: The presenter, 44, appeared on The Diary of a CEO podcast