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Tori Spelling has broken her silence after filing for divorce from husband Dean McDermott, 57, on her new podcast.

The MISSPELLING host, who posed nude for the logo, spoke about the negative thoughts running through her head March 29.

'I've never felt more alone,' the 50-year-old actress told her audience.

'I don’t feel worth loving. That’s the truth. And that’s something that’s just in you, it’s not something I wanted or created,' she said, revealing she experienced those feeling for a long time. 

'That starts when you’re young. [And changing it], that's not easy to do.... I don't know if you can.'

The former Beverly Hills 90210 star then called her estranged husband and left a message, letting him know that she had begun the procedure to dissolve their union.

'There’s this weird thing that I didn’t know about before that you have to be careful with your ex. It’s a he-said, she-said, who filed first,' she explained.

'I had to file and go through the process and then once it was accepted and publicly posted, then I’m allowed to call and fill in my ex. So I just called Dean,' the Scary Movie 2 alum explained. 

'He’s working and I have to tell him and I’m super nervous because I don’t like confrontation.'

Spelling went on to say she wished she had taken the steps toward divorce for 'like... 15 years.' 

'We always say, 'Hey, it made it 18 years.' It shouldn’t have made it 18 years,' the High School Crimes and Misdemeanors star contended, revealing she had stayed to protect McDermott and her children. 

'And I think he would say the same thing if he and I had a real heart-to-heart. It would have been over a lot sooner.'

The couple met on the set of the TV movie Mind Over Murder in 2005.

There was an instant connection, although both were already married.

'We had this very, quick, passionate falling in love period,' the actress said, describing it as a 'fast and furious romance.'