LeeAnne Locken seriously contemplated suicide three months before her wedding, she shared on Wednesday's reunion episode of The Real Housewives Of Dallas.
On a group trip to Mexico, LeeAnne, 52, frequently referenced her difficult upbringing, which was peppered with incidents of sexual abuse and three suicide attempts.
At one point, she suggested she might commit suicide that evening, a comment that her castmates and viewers felt was flippantly made.
Suicidal thoughts: LeeAnne Locken wanted to commit suicide three months before her wedding, she shared on Wednesday's reunion episode of The Real Housewives Of Dallas
But LeeAnne insisted she meant it, and was actually making a cry for help to castmate Stephanie Hollman, 39, who'd attempted suicide herself at age 22.
'That night I was actually hoping when I said that that Stephanie would realize where I was,' LeeAnne admitted. 'I wasn't making a joke about it.'
'You were seriously contemplating suicide three months before your wedding?' Andy asked.
'Mm-hmm,' murmured LeeAnne, who married law enforcement veteran Rich Emberlin in April.
Took offense: D'Andra Simmons took offense of LeeAnne mentioning suicide flippantly
The host: Andy Cohen asked LeeAnne, 'You were seriously contemplating suicide three months before your wedding?'
That irritated her castmate D'Andra Simmons, 40, who had dealt with suicide when her own father shot himself years ago.
'To me, just throwing that card on the table, ''Well, I'm going to commit suicide,'' or ''I may commit suicide,'' that was so offensive to me because of what I went through with my father,' D'Andra said.
'Going and seeing somebody that put a hole in their head from a bullet and then having to clean it up, and then having to go to the mortuary and all that stuff, I don't want to relive that. So if you're gonna talk about it, don't talk about it like that,' D'Andra said.
Family tragedy: D'Andra had dealt with suicide when her own father shot himself years ago
LeeAnne earlier denied using details of her tragic upbringing to manipulate conversations, saying there was a double standard at work in the group.
'Some people are triggered by things I say,' she shared. 'You notice it's never okay for me to be triggered.'
Kary Brittingham, 49, suggested that LeeAnne just looked for openings to mention her story, and felt she had been competitive when it came to discussing who had the worse childhood.
Together again: Brandi Redmond, LeeAnne, Stephanie Hollman, Andi, Kameron Westcott, Kary Brittingham and D'Andra gathered for the season four reunion
'You [ask me questions] that so you can say, ''Yes, this is what I was doing at the same time'',' Kary intimated.
'Everything I do or say you think is about me attacking you,' LeeAnne said. 'And genuinely? Over it.'
'No, everything you do is just about you,' Kary replied. 'You never care about anybody beside yourself.'
New addition: Show newcomer Kary sparred with LeeAnne during the first part of the reunion show
'Really? That's why I do so much f***ing charity work,' LeeAnne shot back.
'Well, yeah, so you can shine,' Kary replied. 'So you can say you do charity.'
'That's the rudest thing I've ever f***ing heard,' LeeAnne snapped. 'Paying it forward is how I grew up, and that's how I'll always be.'
Charity work: LeeAnne was outraged after Kary questioned her charity work
'How much have you donated to any charity events from your bank account?' Kary asked her, not waiting for LeeAnne to answer. 'Why don't you show me your financial commitments?'
'You're being hateful, and spiteful,' LeeAnne replied, flipping her off.
Brandi Redmond, 41, swigged alcohol out of a flask, grinning from ear to ear.
Drinking up: Brandi brought her own flask with alcohol to the reunion
LeeAnne was on the hot seat for much of the show, which host Andy Cohen, 51, began by asking questions about her nuptials.
The event reportedly cost $4 million, but many of the items were borrowed or donated, and barely any food was served, confusing her castmates.
To that, LeeAnne said that the 'value' of the wedding was $4.5 million, including her borrowed jewelry, as that's what it all would have cost otherwise.
wedding costs: LeeAnne was on the hot seat for much of the show, which host Andy began by asking questions about her nuptials
She insisted that she hadn't known how to properly plan a wedding, and said that she thought she had offered enough food, and that at 8 pm it was too late for people to eat anyway.
It was suggested she'd had a five-hour break between the ceremony and reception to avoid feeding people, and she blamed it on production needing to eat, which Andy denied.
'That's not true,' Andy retorted. 'We've had many wedding on the Housewives that we shot straight through.'
Not true: Andy denied that the Bravo production crew needed to be fed at LeeAnne's wedding
LeeAnne also blamed Kary's lost wedding invite on the postal service, saying they lost 30 percent of all mail, but that was factually inaccurate, Andy pointed out.
She then blamed the exaggerated figure on information from her wedding planner, Steve Kimball.
LeeAnne further denied making digs at her mother's expense in her vows when she said that she had never felt loved as a child, explaining that she had been raised by her grandmother.
wedding vows: LeeAnne further denied making digs at her mother's expense in her vows when she said that she had never felt loved as a child, explaining that she had been raised by her grandmother
'My vows were expressing how I felt,' she testified. 'I probably should have taken more time, but I didn't. I wrote them that morning at the cathedral. I did not treat her poorly. I didn't.'
LeeAnne admitted she hadn't wanted to invite her mother, with whom she had not spoken, but the wedding planner convinced her.